too many questions

Why do we have to be in this kind of situation? Heck, things are going crazy and things are becoming so unfair. I can’t stand it anymore but still I’m trying my best to hold on. Come on, do I really deserve to be treated like this? I’ve done so many things, sadly though, it was never appreciated. I feel like I was never given the right importance given the fact that all I ever wanted was for him and other people to be happy.

I’m not a perfect person. I never intended to break my promises. I do have my mistakes and weaknesses and people should learn to accept them. Too many expectations were hurled at me and yes, I failed and I am so devastated. But why can’t certain person can’t understand that? What do I have to do to avoid the effin pain that they are continuously giving me?

Do I have to get hurt over and over again? Why can’t I just be happy and live a normal life? Why do people have to mess with my own life? Why don’t they just stop fussing about me and get lost? I’m so tired. I need someone to get this hell out of me but sad to say, that someone has already turned his back away.