riddles

i am nearing my fucking breaking point.. it's as if i can't breathe.. and i am stuck in a place where i can't move and where i can't be myself.. it's as if a wrong move or choice will break my very being.. and i will ruin everything?.. and i will be judged for whatever it is that i feel.. haay..
i want to talk to you.. but i can't.. i just can't.. it's not right..
days come.. and it still is the same story..

in silence..

i found that i'm missing everyone.. literally EVERYONE...ELSOC..mOst especially... my friends in high school...icamites.. mehn...uh we're INDEED all the best..un tipong khit sino pwde mo hatakin sa isang sulok...magkwento ka ng kung ano-ano.. uh can be perfectly yourself all the time..at wlang mgssbi syo n ur like this and that...uh won't even feel conscious about what you are doing..shit...no insecurities..you can be yourself..PERFECTLY YOUR SHITTY AND CRAPPY SELF...and eventhough you are crap anD shit...YOU FIT IN...*sigh*...

PLMayers... Joyce Torres.. Carlo Elopre.. Ana Narvaez.. Emma Angulo.. mahn.. i miss you guyz... i miss our talks about stuffs... Comsci Blk2...gosh!...mamimiss ko kayo...

shit... still flashing in my mind.. i'm so stupid.. bkit kse bnsa eh?.. ugh... i really don't get myself at times.. ang labo ko... shit! eh sa gusto ko magalit ehh... affected ako ehh...

THE FAT, THE UGLY AND THE INSECURE. leche.. ugliness..fatness at insecurities... hahaha.. i can feel it again.. arrghh..!!

damn.. it sure is hard to express what you feel the most strongly about...

cause i know that though i've typed about a hundred words... i'm not half-way to what's real..what lies in silence..

CRAP

can't i just scream?.... run?... hide?... or sleep all this away?... EXCUSES.. STUPID EXCUSES.. argh!.. just wish there was someone to talk to.. SOMEONE.. to be here.. now... someone i can share EVERYTHING.... someone i can cry to.. without any hesitation.. fear of emotion... reaction... or conflicts.. am i tired enough?...enough to stop... do i need to stop?... or is this ME getting at myself again?.. *sighs*

daanceeeng!

i miss dancing.. as hell!.. the performances on stage.. :( omigod.. i miss the effin practices that would go on all night.. :( haay.. i miss my h.s. friends..

i miss YOU

to see you when i wake up, is a gift i didn't think could be real
to know that you feel the same, as i do, is a three-fold utopian dream
you do something to me
that I can't explain
so would i be out of line, if i said
i miss you.
i see your picture, i smell your skin on, the empty pillow next to mine
you have only been gone ten days, but already i am wasting away
i know i'll see you again
whether far or soon
but i need you to know, that i care
and i miss you

-oh yes!... para sa'yo to.. yes. YOU.

i need answers..

what do i want to do with my life? who do i want to be with? what will happen tomorrow? will you

still be there? will it still be the same? what do i do to us? how can you hold on when ur bleeding

from holding on, when its killing you? how do i cry, when i dont know if i want to? when do you

really forgive? how do you know of IT is time? why dont you speak up? what the pride for?

to be or to be

survey:

what's more important: to be happy? to be right?

andrea nazario: to be right.. live life with maturity.. in that.. less people will get affected or get hurt..what's important is that you stand for being right even others are just doing what makes them happy without even thinking if it is right..

sheila inocente: to be right... you will never be happy if you are wrong.. maybe for the meantime, but not forever.. justifiations are justifications.. whatever it is.. life is a matter of choices.. your own choices.. if you choose to live a life that is full of wrong decisions.. nasasayo na 'yon.. what's important is you learn from your own mistakes and don't let other's decison rule your life.. un lang..

jacq lirio: to be happy.. hindi naman lahat ng tama tama eh.. pati tama ka nga hindi ka naman masaya.. wala din 'yon..

lovely: to be happy.. if you're happy everything seems right..

bernalin: to be happy.. cause i don't believe that to be right can teach you how to be happy.. i know that happiness comes with a price.. i am the captain of my soul.. that's why i have the right to choose what path i should trudge.. there are many things that can make us happy but a few can give you real happiness.. as for me.. loving as wat they say a "wrong person" is my real happiness for now.. i don't care if it's wrong... cause i only live once.. and i odn't want to regret the opportunity of not trying.. and i believe that the best thing you can do to be happy is to follow your heart not others opinion...

sir bats: to be happy.. when you're happy the feeling is right..

caresse dy: to be happy.. dahil di mo 'yon mapapagpalit 'yon ng kahit ano..

kevin redoblado: to be happy.. aanhin mo ang tama kung malungkot ka naman.. mas gugustuhn ko pang mabuhay sa isang kamalian kung yun lang ang tanging paraann para maging masaya ako.. the hell i care with the people who's trying to pull me down..

bhez jam: to be happy.. uh know me.. i'll choose to be happy.. wrong or right..

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NOTE: all answers were posted.. the way they we're sent to my fone.. with the exception of the first phrase in every entry.. personal messages for me were excluded..

VIEN: men are inherently seeking happiness.. just as choice is inevitable in our lives.. so is happiness..we do things to achieve happiness.. what is right counts though.. whether we like it or not.. we DO follow the crowd.. society's perception of ourselves count... happiness or righteousness.. whatever it is that we put in a higher degree.. is up to us.. STILL.. i'll choose to be happy.. i only live once.. i am not a slave to happiness.. but i don't think following society's expectations of me.. will give me the fulfillment i am wanting in this life.. live, love today.. cause maybe.. just maybe tomorrow.. it'll all be gone..

questions..

why this feels xo right?

why you're the one?

can you picture us loving each other for life?

if another should come, who's finer than me.. and she wanna take your love away..

would you leave?..

baby you could just be too good for me..

will this end or will this grow?

..if you really wanna be with me. i'll love you endlessly.

baby please answer these questions..

it gets better or worse?

as i approach that day.. i feel more like an adult.. confronted by more and kickass daily crap and shits.. and then i feel like a child.. cause i don't know what's suppossed to be done.. what's the right move.. the right things to say or do.. it feels like shit.. it's as if i am swimming in this surreal world.. in some parallel universe.. or whatever... and i can't move.. i am confused.. i know where i want to go, where i want to be.. but i can't take that ass shit step forward.. i always step back.. and once again.. i am there... looking.. at what i've done.. analyzing.. always analyzing.. never making that right move.. the move that should have been taken.. a long time ago.. haay..

sAcrifiCe..? think ab0ut it..

isn't it sad dat n our lives, we have to say goodbye to those we love nd care about for some reasons we can barely explain,, and dat no matter how you try to save d good old times, it wouldn't work. and d only right thing left to do is to break away and let go to prove them juz how much pain ur willing to take to make them.. xo damn happy!!

got nuthin' to do

haay.. i really got nuthin' to do dat'z why i decided to update my blog nd my friendster accounts.. hehehehe..

i'm xo bored.. i can't think of other stuffs to do.. honestly i wanna go shopping for christmas but sad to say i have no time and of course.. i still have no money.. hahaha.. nd i xo hate it..!! pathetic..!! hahaha..

fortunately i have xo many school stuffs to work on.. i still have to plan for our class presentation.. but im xo not in the mood to do it.. actually our class presentation will be on dec.19 and my god.. we haven't started yet becoz we still can't finalize our story.. hahaha.. gudluck n lng smen..!!